Baby Got Pack

Posted on December 18, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

Where once the three departments on the fifth floor had each existed peacefully within their own boundaries, the current layout resembles a map of gerrymandering. I come from pubs, but I’m sitting with the manager of a different journal in Research. Several Researchers are sitting in Pubs. My manager is a plush animal’s throw away, near the assistant to the manager by me.

A new employee gets a place to sit the same way you do during a game of Musical Chairs. This is not just the fifth floor. The floors were planned with as much order and precision as two people playing Twister while covered in ketchup packets and lard.

Since our workforce is growing, we purchased the rest of the building and have been spending the past six months expanding the American Society of Hematology and starting from scratch. Everybody is packing up, everybody is moving.

Pubs gets its own floor. And somehow, that will get fucked up, I guarantee it.

The move process is simple. The movers provide you with a plastic crate, you put the sticker with your new home on it, and fill it up. If you don’t have enough space, you can go to the copy room, and there are cardboard boxes. Make sure everything is labeled. You don’t need to do anything with the electronics. Simple, right?

We have an assembly about this today. They explain everything repeatedly. It’s not because the Building Manager is dumb and inefficient, but because she has anticipated getting questions like the first one from the Q&A portion: “Do we put the labels on the monitors before we put them in the crate?”

The heat gets spicy when a woman, who I am going to call Karen for no reason, steps up to the mike. She looks around meeting room 10, which was the size of about six meeting rooms, but is only populated by about forty-five people, and turns back to the Building Manager.

Karen says this: “The boxes are in the copy room. Mmhmm. Are the boxes assembled, or is it something we—” She said “we” like it tasted bad. “Is it something we have to do ourselves?”

When the Building Manager explained that yes, they would have to do it themselves, Karen looked at her audience, nodding ad trying to be relatable. “Could you maybe provide some instruction on how to tape the boxes safely so nobody gets hurt?”

Nobody applauded.

The Building Manager, whose side I’ve been on up to this point, snaps, “They don’t need tape. They’re tapeless boxes. Does anybody else have a question?”

Later, the Building Manager calls over the Expert and asks him to show everyone how easy it is. After whacking the podium three times, the Building Manager leans over and tries to help. She makes it worse. When the HR Giant arrives to bail out his coworkers, he ends up hitting the podium and one of the empty chairs in the front row. If a moving company performed a Nirvana song, this is what it would look like.

In the middle of the show, I received an email featuring a question so stupid I feel a part of my brain die just reading it. I hit my chair with my phone.

Packing is a piece of cake. The only things I need to do my job are a laptop and my faulty brain, so all I have at my desk are some snacks and the toys I don’t want Oscar destroying. I fill up my crate, no boxes, and tried to get back to work.

I can’t because the Director of Research, the supermodel, has to bring her eighteen-month-old son, also a supermodel, to work while she packs. He’s fine. He’s a great kid. He isn’t the problem.

Everyone working in research is a middle-aged mom, so they cluster around him the way a hoard of zombies surrounds one very unlucky alive person. As is the case with zombies, there is a lot of cannibalism. (“I could just eat him up!” “I want to put those toes in my mouth and eat them!”)

So I went home. The move will take place 27 December, so I can’t use my mug until next year.

Capsule with Butterfly Wings

Posted on November 8, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

When I was married, we owned a gun. It was a Glock 19, nine-millimeter. It was compact and virtually indestructible. Each clip held fifteen rounds, sixteen if you had one in the chamber, which any responsible gun owner will tell you not to do. We used steel-jacketed rounds for target practice, which means, the bullet would go through a victim and hit the person behind them. They would probably not die, but they’d have to go to the hospital. Someone could do that to over sixteen people if they were so inclined, and no one would be able to stop them until they paused to reload (which only takes a second or two).

To buy the gun, we went to the Silver Eagle gun range in Virginia, said, “We want a gun.” Kate knew the make and model, so we walked out of there a couple of minutes later. We did not have to do a background check or give any indication we were not going on a shooting spree or even sign something (maybe saying we weren’t planning on shooting anybody?). The only thing they asked of us was the payment.

I’m telling you this because that one-time purchase was easier than the hoops I have to jump through every single month to get a psychiatric medication I require to function.

USA! USA! USA!

Highway to Hell Yeah

Posted on November 3, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

There was a lot of art on my vacation, and I will be sharing it with you. But first, here’s a present I made my friend, Emilie, who was gracious enough to keep me company. It’s of M, the swashbuckling Scourge of I-80 and of her sidekick, Pixie.

Costume Drama

Posted on October 29, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

It’s seven thirty in the evening. I’m usually in bed by eight. I took an Adderall at ten a.m., and I think it’s still going. This could be bad. Last night, I slept like Santa Claus after an exhausting Christmas Eve. The night before, I slept like a little kid waiting on Santa Claus. I’m worried I’m going to sleep like the latter tonight. I am in a state where marijuana is legal, so I’ve taken steps to ward off the tossing and the turning, but they may not be enough.

Emilie did not take the entire time I am here off from work. I would be kind of upset if she had. We have dinners together on work days, and she is a phenomenal … Doo doo, doo-doo doo! Phenomenal! Doo-doo doo-doo!

Sorry. That got out of control.

Emilie is a really good cook. We talk, I fondle her ceramic flowers, we tell stories, I confessed something, and we call it a night. It’s good to do this in person.

Today was the first workday while I was here, so I needed to entertain myself. I started by sleeping in for an hour and a half. I sleepwalked through getting up, making coffee, and getting clean, and I went to breakfast at the same diner as yesterday. I overheard some fun conversations, though everyone was quieter with a smaller crowd of customers.

“I’m not a boat fan. I been on a few boats. I don’t like ‘em.” I also heard my waitress call out, in the tone of voice of a fed-up mom, “Tell him to stop bein’ such a tree-hugger!” (Shortly after this, a guy entered, wearing a hoodie that said, “I’m voting for the prosecutor, not the convict.” My waitress and him did not have a violent confrontation over this because we, as human beings, are capable of treating each other with respect.)

The most baffling one was, “How do you want your eggs, scrambled?” In a strangely erotic voice, she continued, “You got it. You gooooootttttt it.”

After breakfast, I went back to Corvus, the coffee roaster with a remarkable grift, and I ordered an iced coffee. The barista asked, “What kind of cold brew would you like? There’s Nitro, N’awlins, and Tokyo.”

Ninety seconds passed before I said, “Huh?” She explained the differences in the way that aficionados do. (“It has just a little nitro in it, so it goes down smooth.”) I went with Tokyo because they brewed it with the machine.

I took my Adderall, and I got to work, drawing up a storm for hours, until I realized I should probably go to the bathroom, but only after I finished doing one bit, then while I was here, another bit, and I wouldn’t want to stop when I have this bit to do, and another hour passed. When I had been in there four hours, I decided to move on, and I went to the bathroom finally.

I drove around a bit. The area around my airBnB is loaded with shopping centers, and one of them had a store called Disguises. Emilie had told me about an amazing costume shop we weren’t going to visit because it was Halloween. I was going in. This is the biggest costume shop I’ve ever been in. I’d stroll along, enjoying things like the Kenny Rogers wig and beard called “Gambler Costume,” and wander into separate rooms selling more intricate costumes. I turned right into an aisle, turned right at the end of the aisle, turned right at the next aisle, then right again. But instead of walking in a circle, I stumbled into a section of the store devoted only to tutus.

The store is some kind of tesseract.

I haven’t dressed up for Halloween since 2002, when I shaved off my mustache and went as Norville Rogers, with the nom de guerre of Shaggy. That was a repeat of my 2000 costume, with which I broke a haunted house with a well-timed “Zoinks.” I thought about maybe getting something and half-assing it (“You can see by the eyepatch that I am a bohemian pirate.”), but I saw nothing that grabbed my attention.

Overwhelmed by the fact that there was always someone behind me, and exhausted by not looking at the shopgirl’s cleavage, I somehow found my way to the exit. By the time I made it to home base, the Adderall would have left my system. I had no problem sleeping for an hour. But I woke up clear-headed and focused, finishing a drawing before Emilie could invite me over for dinner.

She made butter chicken with Indian cayenne pepper. The conversation was very funny (the story of my hubris meeting a Thai ghost pepper) and very personal (a bad thing I’d done that I don’t talk about). And we called it a night.

After writing this, I can feel the crackling potential energy fade, and I think I’m going to sleep well.

Rent II: Time to Pay Up

Posted on October 3, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

My building has a new owner, as of early September, and one of the first things they did was take down the residential portal on the official website. The portal we’d had so far helped us submit maintenance requests and do other things I never used it for. It was also how I paid my rent. With the exception of electricity, our building handles everything. They don’t pay for it, but I give them money for internet, water, sewer, et cetera, and they pass it on. I assumed that three weeks is enough time to put together a portal.

A quick detail you’ll need to know: new management doesn’t send mass emails out; they leave notes on your door. Basically, since they took over, I occasionally leave my apartment, see the envelope, automatically assume I’m being evicted, then read the letter sigh in relief.

As the end of the month approaches, it’s not clear how I’m going to pay rent, or even how much I will owe, as sewer and water fluctuate every month. I get an eviction notice Monday that says we can pay with a check, whatever that is. I haven’t written a check in five years. After tossing my studio, I find my checkbook in a box in another box under another box.

When I go into the management office, they tell they don’t take personal checks. I need to get a cashier’s check or a money order. I want to get this over with, and there’s a Walmart in my basement, so I stand in line at the customer service department and wait.

And wait.

I’m fifth in line when I get there with two agents at the desks, and it takes twenty minutes to get to the front. Once there, it takes another twenty minutes of entering my information, paying, the transaction not being approved, running it again, restarting from the beginning, still not approved, running it again, running it again, for the rep to tell me that there will be no money orders that day, and I should probably monitor my bank this week in case the transaction went through.

There’s a branch of my bank across the street from work, so I can just pick up a cashier’s check on Wednesday. Only one day late. However, when I opened my door yesterday morning, I find another eviction notice, this one saying they got their own portal, and there was a link to it. In a paper memo. There is also a QR code, so I found the site, but I’m not paying my rent over the phone. When I get home from work, I use DMs to get the page up on my laptop, and that’s when the party starts.

On the page, when it finally finishes loading, is a link: “Set up payment method.” I click on that, and about two minutes later, it gives me an error notice. I try again, and it takes three minutes for the page to load. It takes three minutes for every page to load, and this is what I have to click through to pay my rent, a day late through no fault of my own: Set up payment method->Click here to set up payment method->Credit or direct deposit->Verify->Use this payment method?->Pay bill->Pay balance or custom amount->Select payment method->Confirm->Pay. At three minutes a click, I estimate that I spent roughly four months paying rent today.

One of the best parts about being an adult in 2024 is how easy it is to pay bills. I don’t have to write a check anymore, I don’t have to make sure I have enough stamps, I don’t have to fill out that paper insert, I don’t have to lick an envelope. Nowadays, I don’t even have to remember my password. I paid my last landlord with Venmo, so I would routinely take care of rent while I was running errands. Not this month.

I have never had a harder time trying to give someone thousands of dollars.

The Tooth Shall Set You Free: A Comedy in Three Acts

Posted on September 24, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

Act I: Our hero accidentally opens up his junk mail folder to see reminders for his dental appointment on August 15. There will be no-show charges and inconveniences and hurt feelings.

Act II: After finishing his daily work, our hero walks to the dentist to explain the situation and to reschedule his appointment. However, there is no appointment for August 15. There is one for next month. And there was much rejoicing.

ACT III: However, my appointment is on October 30, when I will be on vacation. The receptionist reschedules my appointment. There was then a wedding and a feast ad dancing, where singles coupled up, and merry people gave a number of speeches summing up the theme of the situation, including a very longwinded one explaining how the show is over. And there was much rejoicing.

Ex-Con

Posted on September 22, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

I went to the Baltimore Comic Con this weekend. I had to stop going to cons for a few years because money was tight, but I really need to leave my apartment, so I took the MARC train into Baltimore. I left after two hours, basically spending more time commuting than wandering the floor. And the fact that I got swindled for $100 as I was exiting the building didn’t improve my mood any.

Right before this, on my way out the door, as I was starting to feel overwhelmed, I noticed there were only about ten people in line to see Ben Edlund. A fellow comic artist once called him “the god who walks among us.” He wrote and illustrated indie comic The Tick, which was adapted into a popular cartoon, and then a live-action show which lasted six episodes, and then another live-action show which ran for two seasons. He was the head scriptwriter for Supernatural and Angel for a time, and he wrote an episode of Firefly. These are the ones I know of.

However, as I was standing in line, awkwardly carrying all the books and stickers and prints independent creators had been throwing at me, this guy two people ahead keeps looking at me, like, really intently. His expression is that of a person who mixed up salt and sugar with his breakfast cereal. He’s in a generic Jedi costume, and he seems to believe he is Jedi, in the way he comes up to me and starts speaking quietly, like he didn’t want to escalate this. Condescendingly, he tells me I was in the wrong line. The real line stretched over the horizon. No Ben Edlund for me.

The whole experience was like walking on a swimming pool full of Lego, and then I met the swindlers. I decided that this was my last con. It was a bust, as far as I was concerned.

That is until I started thinking about it. Everywhere there were artists and writers I admired. Sometimes the only thing they were selling were original pages for hundreds of dollars, or I couldn’t think of anything to say, so I hovered away. People were wearing cool costumes, though I lost interest in taking pictures after a few minutes. Vendors were vending, which is where I found several issues of The Incredible Hulk that I’d been looking for for a while.And Artist’s Alley, always my favorite part, was vast and full of interesting people.

I did talk to some artists. I met Amanda Conner for the fourth time. I called her a filthy degenerate, and she agreed wholeheartedly. Her art is raunchy, but at the same time really sexy, with a cartoony aftertaste.

Her husband, Jimmy Palmiotti, is a writer and inker of exceptional talent, and he sat next to her. They’ve been married forever. The thing about comic artists and writers is that you don’t often see photos of them, so you have no idea what they look like. In the case of Jimmy Palmiotti, he looks exactly like you’d expect a person named Jimmy Palmiotti to look like.

Speaking of not knowing what an artist looks like, I also found Amy Reeder. Amy has got a real fairy-tale style about her, which she showed off in Madame Xanadu, which is about a powerful fortune-teller whose origins were in Camelot. I’ve gotten her autograph two times before this, and I can never remember what she looks like. There’s always the same woman in there with her, and I can’t recall who was who. I spoke to the empty space between them when I talked about how “Amethyst is the perfect book for your style,” and the one who uncapped her pen was Amy.

Likewise, I stood in line to meet Terry Moore. Terry Moore writes character-driven comic book epics in black and white. He pencils and inks his own work, and he hand-letters it. I wanted to talk to him about lettering, so I waited. I was beyond irritated that I’d been standing there for five minutes while this older woman chewed his ear off, especially about how superstar artist Frank Cho was never in his booth. And it wasn’t until Terry Moore said something to her that I realized that this was not Terry Moore, but rather his assistant. Terry was at a panel. I didn’t stick around because I was planning on leaving soon anyway, a path to the door that would take me by Ben Edlund’s booth. And you know how that went.

I had a great time in Artist’s Alley. Lately my obsession is with stickers—I’ve been decorating my sketchbooks like I’m a thirteen-year-old. This led me to a lot of tables to have brief chats with independent creators. My policy is this: if you call me over to your booth and tell me all about your comic or your book or even just your characters, I will buy what you’re, even though I hardly ever read. It’s what I’d want if I was on the other side of the table.

I think I will try this again, maybe next year at Awesome Con, DC’s comic book convention. It wasn’t worth the trip to Maryland, but the DC convention center is only a couple of stops from me. Maybe I’ll feel less awkward around the talents I admire. Maybe I’ll meet all sorts of young, creative people who are really putting themselves out there. And maybe next time I’ll bring a tote bag.

I also got these.

Crock Plot

Posted on August 30, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy

I turned on a movie while I was working, as I always do. It took a few minutes to realize this was a Lifetime movie. The thing about Lifetime movies is that they’re engaging, but they’re really goofy. My favorite part about Lifetime movies is describing them.

This one is about a woman who wakes up in a strange bed with no memory of the night before, and the other person is dead. He is Elon Musk, only he doesn’t look like he ate a statue of John Barrowman made of butter.

Her best friend is a lawyer, who is going to represent her, and her other friend is a good-looking guy who looks exactly like the dead billionaire. I’d say this was by design, but every male in this movie looks like the dead billionaire, including the grizzled cop who’s tracking her down.

She stays with her male friend, but they get attacked by people in hoodies. The cop figures out she’s their suspect, but when she calls the station from a burner phone, he believes she’s innocent. Later, the good-looking friend takes an axe to the face.

Spoiler alert! The lawyer and the dead billionaire’s ex-wife framed the main character. The lawyer because the main character once slept with the lawyer’s ex-boyfriend, the recently axed friend. The ex-wife did it because the main character slept with the billionaire. The cop shows up, there is a scuffle, and everybody believes the main character, even though all the (fake) evidence points at her.

Lifetime!

Jeremiah Murphy and the Journey into Darkness

Posted on August 24, 2024 by Jeremiah Murphy